Everyday is exactly the same

The more things change, the more they stay the same. Its been like this every part of my miserable life. Everyday i do the same things, same routine, wake up, breakfast, work and finally home. I'm surviving instead of living. Everything i tried to be has end up in a mess. I don't know what to do, i get drunk 1/2 weekend. I try to hide these feelings..even though it is slowly decaying me bits by bits